| | Sunday. 1.30.05 3:26 pm yay we got no school monday and tuesday!!!! but i think my grades are really bad... oh well. NO SCHOOL!!!
so yeah monday im going skiing with my church buddies! trust me its funner then it sounds!!
im so tired from the swim meet.... i got quite a bit of sleep last night but i kept randomly waking up and coughing, which is no fun at all.... and i had to sing this morning only to find out my "friend" megan QUIT!!! because of the "lack of maturity in the choir"!!! damn, she needs to take that quote and shove it up her ass!!!!
ok yeah im going to chill now, i don't have choir practice or UMYF tonight so i think im going to sleep for a while, eat, sleep and get up really early for skiing.... not half bad if you ask me
k bye Comment! (0) | Recommend! Friday. 1.28.05 11:32 pm yeah, if you look at all my journals they are all about the same.....
so yeah, we had districts today for swim.... i got to see joanne and molly from woodson!!! yay! i haven't seen molly in 4 years!!!!!! so it was great!
now im really tired... so im gonna go to bed and sleep for forever! or at least until i get annoying with the sunlight!
k bye Comment! (1) | Recommend! Friday. 1.21.05 9:34 pm ok last night i got into a huge fight over money with my dad.... damn and it ended with me going to bed pissed off and my dad giving me pitty money cuz we had such a huge argument!! god i hate those nights! and then i got up at 5 AGAIN to go to the swim breakfast..... which was ok. at least i got to eat something that day.
and yeah after that the day just felt like it would never end!!!! finally after 7th period i just walked around, me steph, amanda, and colin went over to KFC and 7-11.... it was all good. we got food and then amp!!! but i didn't feel good after eating and drinking all that shit.
swim meet was ok.... i did some diving in the pool when everyone else was doing warm ups.... and half way through the meet i jammed my left pinky toe and it still hurts right now. so yeah it kinda hurt when i had to swim!!!! but yeah cheering for all my friends at there last swim meet was fun! and it was me and sophies first meet of the week. and yeah so that was fun..... it was also fun to talk to Mr. Ed!!! and we had a weird "moment" like there was a hole in his pants and i kept puting my hand in his leg pant hole and poking it out of the crotch hole :-P fun times!!!! I can't believe he puts up with me!!
so yeah im chillin, and my toe still kinda hurts.... so im just watchin i love the 90's part deux and half watching Harry Potter!!! so yeah im trying to relax. hopefully ill find something to do tomorrow..... maybe go shovel driveways for moneys cuz im poor!!!
yeah hope y'all havin a great weekend! i might! Comment! (1) | Recommend! Thursday. 1.20.05 5:08 pm blah!
so yeah i get out of my warm bed, mess up my kitty sleeping with me, and go get ready at frickin 5 AM this morning to go do shit i didn't even wanna do!!! i got yelled at for nothing 3 times today and then the peoples didn't say anything about it! went to swim and everyone made fun of me for something!!! and now im in a bad mood cuz i don't want school tomorrow!!
on top of that i have to swim in the meet tomorrow and i don't want to! well i do but i dont.... get that?
blahhhhhhhh!!!!!
oh well.... im going to breakfast tomorrow at 6. maybe that will make me better.... maybe Comment! (0) | Recommend! blah blah blah first entry crap Wednesday. 1.19.05 6:38 am blah yeah so i finally got this crap loaded and shit.... im in my second period just messing around with this stuff...
wow this class is really annoying and very boring
yeah so im in trouble with swim team but luckily its almost over.... yayayayayay fun year but really weird
ok im done
this was my first entry, i hope you all liked it... if not then go to hell! Comment! (0) | Recommend! |
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Cool Quotes
- Be kind, for everyone you meet, is fighting a harder battle
-give me a reason to smlie, I'll give you a reason to cry. Give me a reason to live, I'll give you reason to die.
-ppl who have never come close to seeking death dont understand its promise of an end to lifes struggles. they dont understand the precarious teeter-totter on which a suicidal person balances, shuffling reasons to live and reasons to die back and forth to avoid hitting bottom. they dont understand that when ur that low, its the little things that send u over the edge...not the big things. and sometimes it the littlest things that keep you going, too.
-the best you can do in life is not piss yourself off
-i live in a divided self. one of me is smiling, the other gorging and crying.
-loneliness. its a thing...not a feeling. a big ugly thing that moves in and takes over until you forget how to live with out it, but u cant live with it, either
My Addictive Songs
With This Knife
With this knife im undoing all the bad,
With this knife im feeling less mad,
With this knife im becoming happy,
With this knife im becoming me,
With this knife everything becomes clear,
With this knife there is no more fear,
With this knife my life gets better,
With this knife my hand gets steadier,
With this knife im letting the anger show,
With this knife im about to let go,
With this knife im leaving you,
With this knife im letting the feelings through.
Alone
No one can see the pain that we hide,
They're happy for us to keep it inside,
Our fear is our own; they don't want to know,
Why should we involve them; why should it show.
You live your whole life in confusion and fear,
The need to feel something unbearably near,
Half of you living, Half of you gone,
And inside you know what your doing is wrong.
The thing's that can help, the thing's that may heal,
Are the flame or the blade and the sting of the steel,
The destruction of skin means the death of your soul,
But there's nowhere to run when you’re stuck in a hole.
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